Sunday, June 25, 2006

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Bittersweets ...

So I was sitting here playing Gold Miner Vegas (Jesus, it's been three hours... fucking pathetic... I won though ) and munching on stuff... first a strawberry mochi ice cream then a chocolate then sponge cake (yeah, it was still good oddly enough) and then sunomono and then I finished the other half of my pint of Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie... I know my tummy is gonna hurt sooooo bad.... no wait... it already does. So I'm thinking while eating it... it's sooooo goooood... but... will it be worth it to eat it all and have a horrendous belly ache later? Then I was like... hmm... kinda like... love and relationships... is it worth the love and happiness for the fall and pain that can follow?

If you saw me now you'd see that I have chocolate all over and the ice cream and all my goodies are gone. All that's left now is some water to wash it out. I probably won't drink it. I'll just roll around the next couple of days not able to see my feet. OK not really. But whatever. So yeah. I guess the selfish part of me thinks that it's better to love and lose... the pain still sucks though... but how would I appreciate the good without the shitty bad?

I still need to exercise. Holy shit, do I need to.

I forgot, I talked to Amity yesterday for like a half hour then my mom for like an hour. It was nice. I hate the phone and it's been hurting my head lately if I hold it on my left side (which I need to often since my right wrist hurts so much, yeah, even to hold the phone) but in bed I can lie on my side and just kinda lay it on my head. Ha. So rad. I should get the universal cell-phone holder. But yeah. Amity's like 94lb. now since she's not doing anything. Emaciated much? Yeah... At the same time in my sick twisted mind I want to be back to the 90's... not that low though. She's 5'1"... I'm barely 5' now (shutthefuckup) and I weight about 107lb. Yeah. No muscle though... *belly squish* ugh. I need to transform the blub to oooo.

I painted all day and then passed out at like 10pm doing a puzzle and then woke at midnight and yeah, then jumped on the computer, hobo'd then downloaded Gold Miner because, you know, I need more computer time.

I printed out four resumes and reference sheets so I'm gonna go out Monday and go to Hallmark, Things Remembered, uh... I think that's it... maybe Trader Joe's? Omg why haven't I thought of that before... yeah... and then ofcourse try and follow up with Vince and see about the UCD job and check out some more info on a county job.

Unemployment and not having money's really fucking with me and my back but at the same time atleast I'm getting painting time in and it's really nice. I started a new piece. Not a cow. It's the Ben piece. He bought me a canvas back when I got my four for a new moo set and he said to paint something. Something different. I told him I couldn't... I had nothing to paint... no ideas... and he said it would come. It did. And it's different. I don't think it'll come out too well since it's my first time doing something so not-bubbly-cutey but yeah, that's what practice is for.

Damn. I need to go out and get more ice cream first paycheck... :p

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